RE: When, Where, How and Why did you become Atheist?
October 7, 2015 at 11:51 am
(This post was last modified: October 7, 2015 at 11:51 am by Qwest.)
I almost feel like I have found my home reading this thread. I don't feel like an outcast for being where I am now.
I am a preachers kid and, although I haven't seen my bio father since 18, anyone raised in a strict church will understand what the "Christian guilt" does to you. I began to doubt and have distain for everything as a teen and would leave but the fear of " going to hell" would eventually send me back to church. By the end I was a full fledge, falling on the floor, speaking in tongues, waiting on the rapture Christian who read the bible and tried to ignore the things that didn't make sense or that I hated. I was in an accident and was home bound for over 6 months and really STUDIED the bible. I never went back. I knew what I had become and spoke to a friend that was an atheist to see how he managed to overcome the guilt.Although I knew I couldn't say I didn't believe because the "Christian guilt" was too strong.
It just takes time. Now I can say I am not a Christian. I can say I am agnostic. I can say I am not a theist. There is still, at 47 years old, enough of that brainwashing there to make it hard for me to say that I am an Atheist.
Lost story long but shorter than it could have been I hope it made some sense
I am a preachers kid and, although I haven't seen my bio father since 18, anyone raised in a strict church will understand what the "Christian guilt" does to you. I began to doubt and have distain for everything as a teen and would leave but the fear of " going to hell" would eventually send me back to church. By the end I was a full fledge, falling on the floor, speaking in tongues, waiting on the rapture Christian who read the bible and tried to ignore the things that didn't make sense or that I hated. I was in an accident and was home bound for over 6 months and really STUDIED the bible. I never went back. I knew what I had become and spoke to a friend that was an atheist to see how he managed to overcome the guilt.Although I knew I couldn't say I didn't believe because the "Christian guilt" was too strong.
It just takes time. Now I can say I am not a Christian. I can say I am agnostic. I can say I am not a theist. There is still, at 47 years old, enough of that brainwashing there to make it hard for me to say that I am an Atheist.
Lost story long but shorter than it could have been I hope it made some sense
When you understand why you dismiss all the other possible gods, you will understand why I dismiss yours. ~Stephen Roberts~
