The Ghost of Churchy Past

[Bob Kelso]

For those that were religious before: 
Endearing or fucken annoying? Do you remember your church days with nostalgia, or does it make you want to slap your previous self? Do you remember Sunday service and smile, or roll your eyes in annoyance?

I still sing gospel songs on my way back from work sometimes. I can remember some stuff and laugh. For the most part, however, my religious past makes me feel repulsed and annoyed. It's rare when I see people from church and feel endearment. Usually they piss me off just for standing there. I know how it sounds. I just severely, utterly, and richly hate the fact that I wasted my childhood and youth sitting in church instead of learning important things or being a kid while kicking a ball. Efff. 

So, love it or hate it? Miss it or relieved? Both? What is it?

(Just remembering my last pastor makes me want to beat him up)
Oh, and no. I'm not atheist because of resentment. The feeling of repulse came AFTER I realized how stupid it all was. So before anyone goes there, staaaaaaahp.

Eh, I don't really feel anything unless I recall something particularly stupid I said or thought. Mostly I'm just relieved I'm no longer under the thumb of indoctrination, and proud I worked my way out of it.