Fundemental theorem of Calculus intuition

[A Handmaid]

Someone writes something and I can't understand a word of it.
I think, ok, I'll just google it and find a dumbed down version.
Still can't understand. Ok, I'll try and find the basics and start there.
Still can't understand. Ok, I'll find the basics of the basics and start there.
Still can't understand.
That's when I realise, hey, I'm never going to be smart enough.
Emotionally, that hurts. I like to think of myself as a smart guy.
I'm not.
So it makes me feel a little bit better that I'm smart enough to realise that.
Which makes me not really dumb, at least.
Anyway, I love banana cake. :-)

Don't worry about it. Being smart makes you learn faster, yes, but it'll just take a little more time if you don't consider yourself smart.
if you want to learn Calculus or math in general, I heard khan academy's a good place to start.
Stay strong!