RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 18, 2016 at 12:52 am
(This post was last modified: September 18, 2016 at 2:25 am by Excited Penguin.)
Can someone just kick me in the face or something, so I can become myself again? I'm fucking done with being someone else.
/vent
CIJS,
Let's get something straight. If I hurt you so much, stay away from me. I'm bad for you, I agree. I'm an asshole. It's who I am. You knew this going in.
I want to be there for you, but not when I feel like I'm a sideshow or something. Yes, I'm selfish. Yes, I should be able to put you before my feelings and comfort, especially now. But I can't. I'm that immature and stupid. That's all true. It's all my fault. I'm a monster for this. I'll say that myself.
Why are you surprised? Or maybe you aren't.
There's nothing I can do to change that. So once again, either accept me for who I am or stay away. I want you back but I can't promise you I won't do this again. And again. I just can't. I'm fucked up. Which is why you should stay away from me. Everyone else does and they know me for the useless human being I am, why can't you? Take a page from everyone else's book. Everyone will be better off for it. Just think of yourself. I have nothing more to offer than I already have. This is all I am. And it's just not good enough, I guess. So walk away.
/vent
CIJS,
Let's get something straight. If I hurt you so much, stay away from me. I'm bad for you, I agree. I'm an asshole. It's who I am. You knew this going in.
I want to be there for you, but not when I feel like I'm a sideshow or something. Yes, I'm selfish. Yes, I should be able to put you before my feelings and comfort, especially now. But I can't. I'm that immature and stupid. That's all true. It's all my fault. I'm a monster for this. I'll say that myself.
Why are you surprised? Or maybe you aren't.
There's nothing I can do to change that. So once again, either accept me for who I am or stay away. I want you back but I can't promise you I won't do this again. And again. I just can't. I'm fucked up. Which is why you should stay away from me. Everyone else does and they know me for the useless human being I am, why can't you? Take a page from everyone else's book. Everyone will be better off for it. Just think of yourself. I have nothing more to offer than I already have. This is all I am. And it's just not good enough, I guess. So walk away.