(February 12, 2015 at 4:06 am)robvalue Wrote: Confession: I have extremely frequent violent fantasies involving random strangers and especially children, such as busting into a school yard and killing as many kids as I can before I'm apprehended.
(I hope I don't need to add that they are entirely fanciful and I don't have urges to control.)
It's weird, I wonder where it comes from. Some sort of leftover cave man thing or something.
I sometimes walk past some males in the street and if I get even a hint of intimidation from them I like to imagine beating them to death right then and there. I am perfectly able to control myself, LOL - not that I know how any of them would go. So it's not that crazy
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I have a strange relationship with aggressiveness, though. If someone starts a fight and I'm able to beat them, I do just enough to demonstrate that simple fact and end it as soon as possible. That may involve actual punches/kicks being thrown, but not necessarily full force. It might also only require a certain threatening look and/or tone of voice. The point is to end it as soon as possible, not to end up either beating and humiliating the aggressor and then feeling like you have to apologize to them(which I almost always end up doing) or getting a beating yourself just to prove to yourself that you can take a scrap.
I'm not very muscular or skilled in the art of fighting. But I can be extremely intimidating when I want to. That kind of thing certainly has its perks (which I've abused in the past for the wrong reasons - feeding my own hubris and such), but I also find it to be something that can be put to good use, given the right mindset.