Don't beat yourself up/freak out about the relapse experiences. Sometimes when I lay down I still catch myself beginning that nightly prayer and then I go "Wait... ahhhhh shit". Its not the same as your experiences but you got to give yourself a break. When something is psychologically conditioned into you especially for a period of over 10 years etc its going to take awhile and sometimes a really focused effort to get rid of the habit.
You may want to consider seeking some professional help if the experiences are very severe/uncomfortable. I think that you can overcome them eventually but some of us are just going to carry some weird baggage that pops up every now and again. Just think of it as an old wound that throbs every now and again in the cold.
You may want to consider seeking some professional help if the experiences are very severe/uncomfortable. I think that you can overcome them eventually but some of us are just going to carry some weird baggage that pops up every now and again. Just think of it as an old wound that throbs every now and again in the cold.
