help?

[shannonamyj]

(I'm REALLY anxious typing this so I'm sorry if it's incoherent)

I'm sorry if it's out of place, but I wanted to get this off my chest.

I cut myself and have fallen back to the habit recently. I'm not asking for pity, I want people to know because I want to stop and thought if many people knew, it would be harder for me to do it again. It's a lot like an addiction and I find myself craving more every time I do it, like a vicious cycle. I'm afraid it will get out of control and constantly paranoid about people noticing. I do it for the relief, out of anxiety and self-hatred, but after the relief the anxiety and guilt get even worse, so I do it again, and so it goes on. I don't want to go on like this. It's been less than 24 hours since the last time.

I'm sorry for bothering you all with this. Thanks just for reading the above.

Hi Neimenovic,
I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through. I've self harmed since I was around 9 years old and recently stopped, so if you'd like to talk about it feel free to contact me at any time, and I will try to reply as soon as I am able. Well done for being honest and posting this, it's so brave and a step in the right direction, so have hope.
P.S. please make sure the wound is clean! 
Stay safe x