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[TheoneandonlytrueGod]

I had a "sick heart" with religious faith. My emotional state has improved drastically since moving away from it. This is the last argument that is going to pull me back in. I like the brief moments of happiness I'm enjoying today. I never had those before.

On the long run, thoughts weigh more heavily.

A sick heart never look to see the abyss coming, time moves forward and never wait. We grow old and we die, we also can't choose to move the clock back. Imagine a group of people heading to a deep abyss, and instead of thinking about the fall, they think about the shape of a plant they saw or a clap they heard.

Of course you will temporarily feel good if you don't think about the abyss. But on the long run, you will just miss the jump you so needed to learn about to avoid the coming void.

I've done over a hundred acid trips and once in a while I lay on the grass and looked at the sky at night. I saw the abyss and frankly I found it illuminating. It filled me with the realization that I am in a place between the micro and the macro. It was profound and comforting. The same feeling comes over me when I sit on an ocean beach or lake and watch the waves rolling in. At those times I can actually feel the ages that have come and gone; a feeling of the ages past in the present. I'm not very good at putting emotions in writing, I tend to be too unemotional.