Are depressed people more realistic?

[Mystic]

I don't know how I would react. In the past, when it seemed to be a Creator didn't exist, I did become severely depressed and preoccupied with my thought, because it also seemed like praise, morality, and value, was a delusion, and I had to significantly increase my medications (to highest dose possible actually).

But I've been preparing to act upon sheer love of beauty if nihilism is proven true. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so even if something is not objectively beautiful, if I find it more beautiful to act a certain way, I can do it out of sheer love what seems beautiful. It seems beautiful to me, to be nice to others, so I will be. It's beautiful in my eyes so I will act according to that. Whether there is good and evil or not, is irrelevant, to this motive. It doesn't mean it's valuable. It doesn't mean it's worthy. Doesn't it mean it's good. It simply is a preference I will have.

This is what I've been preparing myself for, if I ever become a nihilist.

Pray to Jesus for me