Are depressed people more realistic?

[Mystic]

Do you think that this might be an expression of how optimism has a causal or correlative relationship with happiness, or how "being realistic" might have a causal or correlative relationship with depression - in your experience?

To put it another way. When you thought that there was no creator, did you feel that you were being "more realistic" (in that moment) than you were when you thought there was?

Well when I believe in a Creator, it seems realistic. And when I don't, it seems realistic. I would not believe either way, if it didn't seem that way to me at that moment.

But to be honest, I think I have disadvantage, in that, I don't know how everyone perceives things, by my own experience. I have schizophrenia therefore I am prone to delusions.

One thing I feel is that small existence cannot exist independently and neither can infinite or large amount of small existences (adding up). I feel that it needs to be sustained and caused continuously. That not even the Creator can bestow independent existence to it, as it's virtually impossible.

To see if it's a delusion that is unique to me, I asked people of various faiths (Theist) on forums if any of them share that view. It seemed some did and no one said they didn't.

You have to understand at point it seemed like I was witnessing dead human spirits from the past in a spiritual dimension and I was there while in my room or in the Car.

So I really don't know if how I perceive myself (constantly seems like I am a soul) is like how others perceive themselves or I am constantly experiencing something abnormal.