I laugh now. I don't know when in my life was the last time I could do that, but it feels at the same time perfectly natural and weird. Sometimes I feel happy for no reason at all. I stopped minding little things. I can say things that used to bother me. And I can feel that slowly, this feeling of wishing to be someone else is fading away.
I caught myself thinking when the bus driver was speeding that I didn't want to die. And not out of fear of pain, but just out of the genuine wish for my life to continue.
So... I guess I must be doing SOMETHING right here, with this not-drowning-in-self-loathing thing?
I caught myself thinking when the bus driver was speeding that I didn't want to die. And not out of fear of pain, but just out of the genuine wish for my life to continue.
So... I guess I must be doing SOMETHING right here, with this not-drowning-in-self-loathing thing?