(October 14, 2016 at 1:05 pm)Vic Wrote: Can I just say...
I have no clue what makes me feel so incredibly, irresistibly drawn to you.
Your physical appearance is an afterthought. Yes, you're objectively handsome, but that's not what makes you this special to me. Or that you have the ideal eye and hair color.
You seem fairly intelligent. Your spelling is horrendous at times but I can forgive that. We connected and I think that's what matters most. For a short moment there on that bus I felt you were my friend.
Is it that you won't look at me? That you won't show interest? That you make me think you don't like me? Is it something along the lines of playing hard to get that makes me want you?
I read that it could mean you 'like' me, that you don't look at me. That look you gave me the other day...what was it? Anger, sadness? I couldn't tell. You looked like a skeptical little boy. You didn't say hello. But you looked straight at me.
I wonder if you do actually hate me. And why would that be.
I wonder what that surprise you didn't manage to hide meant. It was in your voice while you looked at the ground. You seemed so vulnerable at that moment, though you're always confident and easy going. You seemed so shy, you, the vulgar one. Embarrassed that I wanted to go up and say hello. Surprised and sad and looking at the ground, too shy to face me.
I know what you've said to her. What offers you've made. She doesn't mind, while I would be appalled. Did you really mean that? Is that who you are? If it is... it's not getting through to me. I can't seem to be able to hold it against you.
There was something you said, about the open relationship. That you didn't want it but you'd go for it. I've felt like that too before. And that made me want to comfort you.
Do you love her? Are you really into her? She's not taking your advances seriously, I hope you know that. Yes, I'm jealous. But everybody could see that.
She's the exact opposite of me in every single aspect so if you like her... do you not like me?
Why did you seem so uncomfortable when you first said hello?
I never would've guessed you're a shy boy if that's what it is. It's adorable.
Your laugh is cute.
I had a dream about you the other day. I know it couldn't be real but I liked it a lot.
Is shyness why you always seem so cold and distant?
Whatever it is... can't get my mind off you at times. Wish you knew that. Amen.
I enjoyed reading this. Beautifully written.
"Of course, everyone will claim they respect someone who tries to speak the truth, but in reality, this is a rare quality. Most respect those who speak truths they agree with, and their respect for the speaking only extends as far as their realm of personal agreement. It is less common, almost to the point of becoming a saintly virtue, that someone truly respects and loves the truth seeker, even when their conclusions differ wildly."
-walsh
-walsh