RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
June 18, 2017 at 12:36 pm
(This post was last modified: June 18, 2017 at 12:40 pm by Autumnlicious.)
CIJS (vent from last night) - Come now, is my crazy behavior really that surprising? Yes, I fundamentally disrespected networking, but I was sick and tired of enduring an obviously flawed network. It was too much for one man to do - I was wrong and needed to call for backup. This isn't an anomaly - this is every weekend! We all have the same problem of trying to do too much, having it fall apart violently and then becoming depressive because nothing gets done. Did any of you celebrate my small accomplishments that were done for you or did you simply ignore it? I'm still upset that after restoring your blog to completion you didn't even login to it! I don't want new entries, all I wanted was my work for you to be taken seriously! None of us can succeed if our victories turn to ash and disappointment. The last time we tried to solve that syndrome, we had some momentum with the kanban whiteboard before it got overloaded and oppressive. Who overloaded it? I failed, yes, to step in and prevent that, but c'mon! Why don't you see that it's a problem of level setting expectations? Why do I avoid coming home? It's to avoid that desparing feeling. I must be similarly as ignorant and callous to your needs - so work with me on this. I know a buddy system is ridiculous but you're leaving me few options - every other technical solution failed from lack of use. You can't dislodge feeling like a failure if you refuse to embrace the small successes you get everyday. At least with two people, we can restrain unchecked ambition and force recognition of accomplishing something! It sound so easy - why do I fear that this plan out of the rut will fail like the others?
Slave to the Patriarchy no more