RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
July 29, 2017 at 11:32 am
(This post was last modified: July 29, 2017 at 11:34 am by vorlon13.)
CIJS;
apparently this happened a while back and it only recently filtered to my level, but GOOD FOR YOU!!
I actually had wondered if/when you might realize your mom has a SERIOUS mental health problem. See, you've grown up with her, your standard of "normal" is probably skewed a bit so you never even suspected other moms are NOT like your mom. But you're in high school now, and you've met other moms, you've been in other homes, and lo and behold, you noticed your mom is PROFOUNDLY different. At first blush, everyone sees a slightly aging hippy type 'peace and love' oriented woman. But every so often, something (or even nothing) will set her off and instantaneously, she turns into someone who could literally scare the holy shit out of Jason Voorhees, Freddy Krueger, hell, anyone you can think of.
And there you are, that ain't normal. And she does it frequently. Now, most the rest of us have noticed how bad she gets does vary somewhat over time. There have been months and months where the bad side, while really, really bad, is nowhere close to other times when that bad side is staggeringly worse.
She has 'some' control over it, and she is big into self medicating, both holistic New Age crap, which you have noticed does nothing, and various street drugs that might make her feel better, but as you can see, actually makes it much worse.
Now, you've done very well to figure out something is wrong, but then you IMMEDIATELY fucked up. I'm sorry, but LOL, you seriously thought approaching her from a concerned soon to be an adult frame of reference was going to help !!
Seriously, I'm sorry, but I'm still ROTFLMFAO !!!
Anyone and everyone could have told you (and why you didn't just know this is a hoot!) don't you dare confront her about it. Jesus Fucking Christ, if there is anything in the known universe that would set her off, it would be that.
Here's your best bet:
pretend everything is fine, she'll erupt again and again over real or perceived trivial slights and your fuck up will be lost in the signal to noise ratio of her life. No, what you need to do is keep up those good grades (how the hell you do that is a total mystery) graduate, get a tuition grant, and GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER.
Really, that's it. Just turn 18, graduate, and RUN as far away as you can and never come back. Don't worry about your dad, the instant you're gone, he'll bolt for the door too. There are only 2 possibilities why he has stuck around for all the abuse you've seen (and I guaranty there was MUCH more): it's either to see you escape first, or it just never occurred to him to leave. Yeah, there's another revelation for you, you're dad is about as sharp as liver. And maybe he grew up with a parent of his own similarly fucked up and has yet to realize not everyone is like that.
Anyhow, to reiterate, just don't set her off any more than you possibly can, realize she will NEVER get better, AND GET THE FUCK OUT OF DODGE.
You'll be fine. Now go to the library and study some more.
apparently this happened a while back and it only recently filtered to my level, but GOOD FOR YOU!!
I actually had wondered if/when you might realize your mom has a SERIOUS mental health problem. See, you've grown up with her, your standard of "normal" is probably skewed a bit so you never even suspected other moms are NOT like your mom. But you're in high school now, and you've met other moms, you've been in other homes, and lo and behold, you noticed your mom is PROFOUNDLY different. At first blush, everyone sees a slightly aging hippy type 'peace and love' oriented woman. But every so often, something (or even nothing) will set her off and instantaneously, she turns into someone who could literally scare the holy shit out of Jason Voorhees, Freddy Krueger, hell, anyone you can think of.
And there you are, that ain't normal. And she does it frequently. Now, most the rest of us have noticed how bad she gets does vary somewhat over time. There have been months and months where the bad side, while really, really bad, is nowhere close to other times when that bad side is staggeringly worse.
She has 'some' control over it, and she is big into self medicating, both holistic New Age crap, which you have noticed does nothing, and various street drugs that might make her feel better, but as you can see, actually makes it much worse.
Now, you've done very well to figure out something is wrong, but then you IMMEDIATELY fucked up. I'm sorry, but LOL, you seriously thought approaching her from a concerned soon to be an adult frame of reference was going to help !!
Seriously, I'm sorry, but I'm still ROTFLMFAO !!!
Anyone and everyone could have told you (and why you didn't just know this is a hoot!) don't you dare confront her about it. Jesus Fucking Christ, if there is anything in the known universe that would set her off, it would be that.
Here's your best bet:
pretend everything is fine, she'll erupt again and again over real or perceived trivial slights and your fuck up will be lost in the signal to noise ratio of her life. No, what you need to do is keep up those good grades (how the hell you do that is a total mystery) graduate, get a tuition grant, and GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER.
Really, that's it. Just turn 18, graduate, and RUN as far away as you can and never come back. Don't worry about your dad, the instant you're gone, he'll bolt for the door too. There are only 2 possibilities why he has stuck around for all the abuse you've seen (and I guaranty there was MUCH more): it's either to see you escape first, or it just never occurred to him to leave. Yeah, there's another revelation for you, you're dad is about as sharp as liver. And maybe he grew up with a parent of his own similarly fucked up and has yet to realize not everyone is like that.
Anyhow, to reiterate, just don't set her off any more than you possibly can, realize she will NEVER get better, AND GET THE FUCK OUT OF DODGE.
You'll be fine. Now go to the library and study some more.
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