CIJS I don't know what to do about you.
I've gotten used to just ignoring everything and not getting emotionally involved, because caring about your problems has fucked me up more than once in the past. But back then when I decided to, I still thought you were only toxic. Now, after this talk with N, I *know* there is something way not right with you. I don't wanna say it, but you do need help. Even though you appear perfectly content drowning in your pool of self-inflicted misery and self-hatred. That I would maybe not understand, but manage to accept, but... it's all the other little things. Nothing you say can creep me out anymore, but... folders of pictures? Drawings? Stories? Hallucinations? All about this one asshole? Listen I know I'm no good at getting over people at will, but you, honey, you take it to a whole new unhealthy level.
You claim to have gotten better... and maybe you have. But we both wonder, are you really feeling better or are you just not telling anyone about it?
I guess it's none of my business but damn... I'm kinda scared. Both for you and of you.
I've gotten used to just ignoring everything and not getting emotionally involved, because caring about your problems has fucked me up more than once in the past. But back then when I decided to, I still thought you were only toxic. Now, after this talk with N, I *know* there is something way not right with you. I don't wanna say it, but you do need help. Even though you appear perfectly content drowning in your pool of self-inflicted misery and self-hatred. That I would maybe not understand, but manage to accept, but... it's all the other little things. Nothing you say can creep me out anymore, but... folders of pictures? Drawings? Stories? Hallucinations? All about this one asshole? Listen I know I'm no good at getting over people at will, but you, honey, you take it to a whole new unhealthy level.
You claim to have gotten better... and maybe you have. But we both wonder, are you really feeling better or are you just not telling anyone about it?
I guess it's none of my business but damn... I'm kinda scared. Both for you and of you.