(August 12, 2018 at 8:24 am)Lucanus Wrote: CIJS that I'm tired of it all. I think I would be more free in death than in life. I try way too hard to be reasonable when all the ones I care about won't even listen to me. Why should I choose which one to hurt? I don't want to hurt anybody. Maybe I'm just a fucking sissy, maybe I should just hurt myself
You're not alone in feeling this way.
I too have been in a bad place without an exit, but somehow I managed to escape.
Just as hard as it is to look back and put a finger on a time when the misery started, it's also just as hard to pinpoint it's ending.
But you can be happy again.
A thunderstorm only lasts for a while and then it dissipates.
Trust me, things will get better.