My mom is dying, going to need an ear.

[Abaddon_ire]

I think there is a misunderstanding here.

My mom would not want me blathering with a gun to my head and that is NOT what I am doing. 

I HAVE come to terms with her death. But that does not mean you get over it, it just means you remember and cope and move on.

Sure. It was my privilege to see my mother and my father off this mortal coil. Nobody had any illusions, but we did have that "magic moment" of outright honesty before both passed.

Death happens to everyone, nobody can escape it. But it is ok to talk about it and remember and talk about it. I WILL talk about her as long as I live, and miss her as long as I live. I don't think that makes me suicidal one bit.

Absolutely. My one regret is that my siblings missed that. Not their fault, we are geographically diverse, but I lived with my father for a time. I cannot share that experience.

Bittersweet is not the same as "woe is me" or "nobody knows what I am going through."

One can if one choses to do so.

It just means reflecting on what we had is a comfort to me.

Pick one. A tight family relationship? Or a deity that insists that none such exists?

Look at my last post. I POSTED that my mom would be doing this   . Knowing her team won a division game. I didn't say that to make anyone depressed but to reflect.

Are you not most fortunate that your mother still lives? Does that not place you as a youth?