(February 23, 2014 at 6:47 pm)philonehalf Wrote: Hi Just wanted to get something out there and perhaps there are people who might look and feel something vaguely similar....?
I have been a Christian since I can remember, brought up Baptist converted to Catholic (from a mixed background) but over the last few years since I got married and had a daughter I have realised things are really different. It's hard to pin the process down of exactly when you lose your faith but a big part of it for me is to do with knowledge, and actually actively seeking knowledge about the past and the history of the bible. Some of the threads are interesting for me here as they reflect some feelings that are very familiar. I have basically taken a BIG interest in religion since I had to face the fact that my daughter should be raised to believe in god, and then promptly felt an overwhelming feeling that I just could not put her through the kind of 'brainwashing' that I have experienced my whole life without fully understanding why I should do this. The result of this exploration so far is that I cannot find any reason to believe in the Christian story as anything more than a story, a good story, but not something that I could ever believe (now) as fact.
Is this hard...Very... but at least I feel resolved enough to post this and I feel a certain weight lifting just writing this. As someone has said in another post it is often very hard to leave a Christian life behind as most of your friends and relatives DO NOT get this and their first instinct is to save you.
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Welcome! I was once Christian, and it was a long road to discover truth, and realize that the Bible and all the hoopla is just that, hoopla. Lies. The people in your life love you, and so wanting to 'save' you comes from a good, special place. But, there comes a point when you have to live authentically, and using logic. I don't dismiss the possibility of god existing. There may be a god, but there's no need to concoct a god in my mind ...follow a bunch of rules in hopes he doesn't smite me. lol When you awaken, you start living.
I hope you find joy and peace here.
