Come See Me, Dammit!

[Mothonis]

..!By the way Brakeman is that you in your avatar?

Close, it's Pol Pot, the Cambodian tyrant that was head of the Khmer Rouge. He was instrumental in killing 1 to 2 million people.
But I have been told that at times I look like him.

Here's what I look like in real life now:


Well the picture is a couple of years old, but I am at work as usual..

This is what I used to look like in High School:


So I've gone down hill pretty hard. While I will continue to have thick full hair, I have been completely gray since my late thirties. The color you see is from a dye job that I must do myself to save money but since I rather dislike doing it, and since I never remember which is the good hair coloring I like and which is the one I hate, I always put it off until it begins to look like I have a dusty gray toupee on my head. As you can see in the picture, the sideburns are almost always gray and that I'm overdue for both a coloring job and a haircut. And way overdue at the gym. But crap, that stuff don't matter now.

This is me and my wife just a couple of months ago I think..


I like to kid her that we have "gone to seed" (it's an old mountain country term to mean we aren't as good as we once were. Like how an okra pod goes from soft and perfect to hard, split, and spotty.)
She hates that term and slaps me..

You don't look quite as old as I do, In fact you remind me of someone I know but I haven't put my finger on who it is just yet. Maybe it will come to me in a bit. What region of the world do you hail from?

Sorry for mistaking you for pol pot,although i heard of him i never saw what he looked like.Strange he actually looks like a decent man with kind eyes in that photo hard to believe he did those things.Iam from Arizona, in the city of Coolidge.Iam 23 going on 24 in oct

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I need more atheist friends in person, I only have about two that are close but that's it. I need moar.

[Losty]

I am sure that you are being way way too critical on yourself. Few of us meet Madison Avenue's requirements for beauty.
I obviously have no idea what you refer to as I have never seen you, but if you are like so many, being over weight is the number one self image destroyer despite it being today's most common BMI state.

I am overweight too as so many are, and although I do want to get back into shape, it bothers me less emotionally as I get older. Now though, I automatically see through the extra weight of other people, and see the other "beauty" characteristics much more.

Well I do agree with you,but i also recongnize that there are certain qualities that attractive people have even if their not models,theirs also science involved to some extent.I don't believe i have any of those features.

Iam very critical of myself when it comes to everything because as a Atheist,rationalist,skeptic ive learned I have to accept reality regardless of weather or not its good.

But your right i should hold up my head up high regardless of how i look.

I cried a little while reading this -_-
I will only forgive you because English is not your first language.

[Mothonis]

Well I do agree with you,but i also recongnize that there are certain qualities that attractive people have even if their not models,theirs also science involved to some extent.I don't believe i have any of those features.

Iam very critical of myself when it comes to everything because as a Atheist,rationalist,skeptic ive learned I have to accept reality regardless of weather or not its good.

But your right i should hold up my head up high regardless of how i look.

I cried a little while reading this -_-
I will only forgive you because English is not your first language.

What do you mean?