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help?
June 4, 2015 at 12:58 pm
(I'm REALLY anxious typing this so I'm sorry if it's incoherent)
I'm sorry if it's out of place, but I wanted to get this off my chest.
I cut myself and have fallen back to the habit recently. I'm not asking for pity, I want people to know because I want to stop and thought if many people knew, it would be harder for me to do it again. It's a lot like an addiction and I find myself craving more every time I do it, like a vicious cycle. I'm afraid it will get out of control and constantly paranoid about people noticing. I do it for the relief, out of anxiety and self-hatred, but after the relief the anxiety and guilt get even worse, so I do it again, and so it goes on. I don't want to go on like this. It's been less than 24 hours since the last time.
I'm sorry for bothering you all with this. Thanks just for reading the above.
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June 4, 2015 at 1:06 pm
It's no problem, it's really good you are talking about it. You're always welcome to PM me if it will help as well.
I'm very sorry to hear about what you're going through  Are you able to get any professional help with this?
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June 4, 2015 at 1:23 pm
Thank you, that's very kind. 
(June 4, 2015 at 1:06 pm)robvalue Wrote: Are you able to get any professional help with this?
Yea, sorry, forgot to mention. I'll get to a professional as soon as possible, I'm working up the courage. It's pretty difficult to talk about, especially because I get very anxious around strangers
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June 4, 2015 at 1:31 pm
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Sure, I understand that totally. Maybe you could pursue the help by phone or email to get you started? Either to apply, or to a telephone based helpline?
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June 4, 2015 at 1:36 pm
(June 4, 2015 at 12:58 pm)Neimenovic Wrote: (I'm REALLY anxious typing this so I'm sorry if it's incoherent)
I'm sorry if it's out of place, but I wanted to get this off my chest.
I cut myself and have fallen back to the habit recently. I'm not asking for pity, I want people to know because I want to stop and thought if many people knew, it would be harder for me to do it again. It's a lot like an addiction and I find myself craving more every time I do it, like a vicious cycle. I'm afraid it will get out of control and constantly paranoid about people noticing. I do it for the relief, out of anxiety and self-hatred, but after the relief the anxiety and guilt get even worse, so I do it again, and so it goes on. I don't want to go on like this. It's been less than 24 hours since the last time.
I'm sorry for bothering you all with this. Thanks just for reading the above.
I hope very much that it does help to tell. Do seek help. Rob is right that you can begin with emails.
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June 4, 2015 at 1:48 pm
Would it help if I asked you to stop ?
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June 4, 2015 at 1:54 pm
If you can work up the courage to tell us i'm sure you can work up the courage to speak to a professional about it, hope you can get it under control
Quote:I want to stop and thought if many people knew, it would be harder for me to do it again
This is where therapy can be very useful, if you have a regular appointment with someone you've built up a rapport with you'll find yourself not wanting to let them down
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RE: help?
June 4, 2015 at 1:59 pm
(June 4, 2015 at 1:23 pm)Neimenovic Wrote: Yea, sorry, forgot to mention. I'll get to a professional as soon as possible, I'm working up the courage. It's pretty difficult to talk about, especially because I get very anxious around strangers
Perhaps you can gain courage through the encouragement of those here.
I have no expertise or experience to offer.
Only my good will and agreement with advice to seek professional help.
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June 4, 2015 at 2:40 pm
<twin hug>
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Don't worry, my friend. If this be the end, then so shall it be.
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June 4, 2015 at 3:01 pm
Thank you all for your support and advice, it helps a lot. You guys rock
(June 4, 2015 at 1:48 pm)vorlon13 Wrote: Would it help if I asked you to stop ?
I think so
(June 4, 2015 at 2:40 pm)TRJF Wrote: <twin hug>
*pat pat*
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