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My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
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 (February 2, 2018 at 3:54 pm)AtlasS33 Wrote: Just one thing; it's a mere sting. Holy shit, thank you! That was SERIOUSLY beautiful! I am not kidding, if by luck I ever put a book together THAT WILL be in it.  (February 2, 2018 at 4:32 pm)Brian37 Wrote:I wouldn't be so quick to thank him, have a look at his locked thread.(February 2, 2018 at 3:54 pm)AtlasS33 Wrote: Just one thing; it's a mere sting.
"For the only way to eternal glory is a life lived in service of our Lord, FSM; Verily it is FSM who is the perfect being the name higher than all names, king of all kings and will bestow upon us all, one day, The great reclaiming" -The Prophet Boiardi-
Conservative trigger warning.
![[Image: s-l640.jpg]](https://i.ebayimg.com/images/g/DjAAAOSwpIhe1HCM/s-l640.jpg)  (February 2, 2018 at 4:32 pm)Brian37 Wrote:(February 2, 2018 at 3:54 pm)AtlasS33 Wrote: Just one thing; it's a mere sting. You are welcome  Thank you too; Brian. It will be an honor 
RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
February 10, 2018 at 2:03 pm
(This post was last modified: February 10, 2018 at 2:03 pm by Brian37.)
You'd Be Proud, By Brian37 (AKA Brian James Rational Poet On FB and brianrrs27 on Twitter.)
You'd be proud mom I conquered my fear Got on that plane To visit my friend in the southern hemisphere You'd be proud I finally made the trip To visit the land down under To visit my best frriend Though you only talked to him Only on skype After 16 years Though you're not alive I know you;d be smiling Knowing your second son Whom gave me friendship When you were down We never got To be in the same place But you'd be proud Of all of it The plane touched down In Brisbane First thing I did Went to the nursing home Saw Bob there Face to face Reminded me of visiting you Every day The joy of seeing you The pain of knowing That getting old Can't be avoided His smile as wide As the Pacific Ocean The one I crossed Scared and frozen Terrified of flying I still did it To meet your second son You'd be proud I did it I know mom We never sat at Sunrise Bacon and eggs Coffee and laughs I know it's not The same room for us three But I know of this You;d be happy to see The most bittersweet Of this all Not long for this world Is my friend Bob I hate this planet And it's size That kept us away All this time I wish it true In a parallel universe You were not dead And Bob were healthy That we'd been together At the same time But down under Is were all will arive You'd be proud mom I can imagine the hug Strong embrace You'd give Bob You'd Be Proud, By Brian37 (AKA Brian James Rational Poet On FB and brianrrs27 on Twitter.) You'd be proud mom I conquered my fear Got on that plane To visit my friend in the southern hemisphere You'd be proud I finally made the trip To visit the land down under To visit my best frriend Though you only talked to him Only on skype After 16 years Though you're not alive I know you;d be smiling Knowing your second son Whom gave me friendship When you were down We never got To be in the same place But you'd be proud Of all of it The plane touched down In Brisbane First thing I did Went to the nursing home Saw Bob there Face to face Reminded me of visiting you Every day The joy of seeing you The pain of knowing That getting old Can't be avoided His smile as wide As the Pacific Ocean The one I crossed Scared and frozen Terrified of flying I still did it To meet your second son You'd be proud I did it I know mom We never sat at Sunrise Bacon and eggs Coffee and laughs I know it's not The same room for us three But I know of this You;d be happy to see The most bittersweet Of this all Not long for this world Is my friend Bob I hate this planet And it's size That kept us away All this time I wish it true In a parallel universe You were not dead And Bob were healthy That we'd been together At the same time But down under Is were all will arive You'd be proud mom I can imagine the hug Strong embrace You'd give Bob You'd Be Proud, By Brian37 (AKA Brian James Rational Poet On FB and brianrrs27 on Twitter.) You'd be proud mom I conquered my fear Got on that plane To visit my friend in the southern hemisphere You'd be proud I finally made the trip To visit the land down under To visit my best frriend Though you only talked to him Only on skype After 16 years Though you're not alive I know you;d be smiling Knowing your second son Whom gave me friendship When you were down We never got To be in the same place But you'd be proud Of all of it The plane touched down In Brisbane First thing I did Went to the nursing home Saw Bob there Face to face Reminded me of visiting you Every day The joy of seeing you The pain of knowing That getting old Can't be avoided His smile as wide As the Pacific Ocean The one I crossed Scared and frozen Terrified of flying I still did it To meet your second son You'd be proud I did it I know mom We never sat at Sunrise Bacon and eggs Coffee and laughs I know it's not The same room for us three But I know of this You;d be happy to see The most bittersweet Of this all Not long for this world Is my friend Bob I hate this planet And it's size That kept us away All this time I wish it true In a parallel universe You were not dead And Bob were healthy That we'd been together At the same time But down under Is were all will arive You'd be proud mom I can imagine the hug Strong embrace You'd give Bob You'd Be Proud, By Brian37 (AKA Brian James Rational Poet On FB and brianrrs27 on Twitter.) You'd be proud mom I conquered my fear Got on that plane To visit my friend in the southern hemisphere You'd be proud I finally made the trip To visit the land down under To visit my best frriend Though you only talked to him Only on skype After 16 years Though you're not alive I know you;d be smiling Knowing your second son Whom gave me friendship When you were down We never got To be in the same place But you'd be proud Of all of it The plane touched down In Brisbane First thing I did Went to the nursing home Saw Bob there Face to face Reminded me of visiting you Every day The joy of seeing you The pain of knowing That getting old Can't be avoided His smile as wide As the Pacific Ocean The one I crossed Scared and frozen Terrified of flying I still did it To meet your second son You'd be proud I did it I know mom We never sat at Sunrise Bacon and eggs Coffee and laughs I know it's not The same room for us three But I know of this You;d be happy to see The most bittersweet Of this all Not long for this world Is my friend Bob I hate this planet And it's size That kept us away All this time I wish it true In a parallel universe You were not dead And Bob were healthy That we'd been together At the same time But down under Is were all will arive You'd be proud mom I can imagine the hug Strong embrace You'd give Bob
It's been a year now. It still feels like yesterday and forever at the same time. Missing mom still, but she'd be happy for me with everything I have done since. I wish she could have been alive and healthy to go to Australia with me. She flew a lot more than I ever did and I'd bet she would have called me a baby on the plane for being scared of the turbulence. But she would have enjoyed meeting Bob and Deb and Will and Mike. She really would have liked Deb, Mike Bob's friend though, she would have liked him, but not his politics, he thought more like me. I know she would have loved downtown and the Water Taxis. She raised me on the weekends at a marina and she always loved the water and sailing.
I actually cried a couple times while there, especially at the zoo because I wanted her to be with me there to pet the kangaroos and hold the Koala with me. My bigger task though is now, replacing my house. I know she'd bug me to "just do it". Mom was always decisive. I am sure once I get that done she would be smiling. 1 year and you never stop missing them. 
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. I know how hard it can be to have to let someone very close to you go. Coming to terms with it is hard and it can take a long time. Just know that there is no set time for grieving but make sure you take care of yourself. Self-care is important when you are going through such a hard time like this.
I'm just a PM away if you need an ear....or an eye. A person to talk to. (March 1, 2018 at 8:20 am)No_God Wrote: I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. I know how hard it can be to have to let someone very close to you go. Coming to terms with it is hard and it can take a long time. Just know that there is no set time for grieving but make sure you take care of yourself. Self-care is important when you are going through such a hard time like this. You never get over that kind of loss, but time and friends do help. I have to say having things like the trip to go on did help. I'll be going to Oklahoma this fall to visit my redneck friend John. Hopefully we will go to a Dallas/Skins game, 3 hours away south of him. I know that would make her happy. She loved both Bob and John and DID get to see them on Skype at least. Mom was a lifetime Skins fan, but I know John will be rooting for Dallas and my Mom would be conflicted because while ultimately she'd want the Skins to win, she always loved watching me squirm when my friends teased me. This thread is my way of coping. My Mom would have wanted me to be happy and not sad all the time. I still miss her of course, but I use this thread to post the good things about her too. Everyone will go through some sort of family loss unfortunately. I also hope it gives others comfort knowing they are not alone. You can remember the good times too. My favorite thing to do with Mom was having her riding in the back of the van, both on local and long trips, we had a few silly ongoing car jokes/games we would repeat and that made it fun. I'll also miss looking in the rear view listening to her try to sing ABBA songs, it was about the only music we had in common. Billy Joel's "My Life" I knew long ago was one of her favorite songs, she used to tease me back then and even in her old age with the line, "Go ahead with your own life leave me alone". And don't get me started on how I set myself up at her urologist's office one day. The doc had one of those medical graphics in the exam room,of a gloved hand/finger up a rear. OK I GET IT, someone needs to know that, and a patient may need to know it, BUT how about a NEED TO KNOW BASIS? I really felt uncomfortable sitting next to my Mom while looking at that, stupid me made the mistake of saying something to her. Ever since that she took every opportunity to wiggle her finger at me to squirm. Then, there was another time she got a geriatric magazine selling all sorts of products. I was sitting on the couch in her apartment flipping through it and WITHOUT WARNING, I hit TWO PAGES of adult TOYS for the bedroom. I AM NOT KIDDING! And all I could think was, "HOLY CRAP GUYS, a little warning." I mean who the hell wants to be sitting next to their parents and see that? I didn't shout but did raise my voice saying "EWE!" She asked what was up, I handed her the magazine and she laughed. She always teased me about my fear of heights too. Anytime we'd pass a tall cell phone tower on a trip, she'd joke asking me if I could climb it to change the light bulb at the top. Then there was our tradition of playing table top football while waiting for our food eating out. She'd double tap which is cheating if anyone has played it. I'd move the triangle football as a penalty and she would laugh. I do miss all that, but it does bring me lots of comfort to know I had that time and love and fun with her. RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
March 1, 2018 at 4:09 pm
(This post was last modified: March 1, 2018 at 4:21 pm by Brian37.)
March 1rst Marmalade, By Brian37
A year out, How to honor To the breakfast place I went this morning She'd have her standard Two eggs, over easy Ask for an empty side plate She loved the yellow not the white She'd cut out the whites And use her toast To sponge it up the yellow She loved the most Two pieces of bacon To complement But she'd always hunt down That marmalade If it was not there In the rack To another table I'd hunt and bring it back So today To honor her I went there and ordered My usual gyro To remember Her playful nature Table top football Waiting to make our order It had been Almost a year Since her death Since I had been there And to my surprise My waitress remembered My order And table top football What an impact My mom did have For such a mundane event For a stranger to remember Though I did not ask I am sure she would have Remembered my Mom's order Long after the fact Magnify this With her career 30 years of teaching Countless kids benefited The marmalade haunts me I guess it will forever To not have her ask me To grab from another table And the egg whites She did not like I added to my gyro Or piled on my burger The fact that the waitress Remembered her Understates to me Her impact on all others.
I miss you mom. I know it has been over a year. But still, things happen and I cant share them with you.
I am ok really, but still. You'd be proud of me buying my new house. Taking forever, but you'd be proud I've taken that risk.
Over a year now since, and still miss our car rides sharing the little music we both liked. I wish my mother were still alive to see this.
https://www.billboard.com/articles/colum...-new-songs ABBA is getting back together to make two new songs. |
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