My story: becoming christian because of a sickness tricking me
March 9, 2014 at 11:58 pm
(This post was last modified: March 10, 2014 at 1:33 am by heathendegenerate.)
PROFANITY ALERT. I'm not here to offend christians.. I'm here to see life right.
When I did a prayer to accept jebus, with some christian dudes, I heard a voice in my ear talk all this religious jibber-jabber right at that very moment. First voice, ever. And I wasn't diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder at that time. The timing was very, very terrible. Who wouldn't believe? Right that second I heard a voice for the first time ever? I still get a little skeptical about my athiest conversion, since the timing just seems so terrible. It's like some "god" was fucking with me, or something. I pretty much brainwashed myself and got really into the thought of everything being evil and terrible. I still have habits.. like when I check out chicks.. OH DON'T LOOK THERE!... oh, his name in vein!..etc. Really, feel sorry for me. You don't think, when it happens at that moment, that you're schizophrenic. Oh, I'm just schizophrenic, moving on. Especially when you knew jackshit about voices or people ill with it. It was so fucking terrible.
FEEL MY DAMN PAIN. All you fellow anti-christs would have believed, too. You know what still scares me? I've never again had a silent voice outside my head. I've heard audible things outside my head. I've never ..again.. had silent voices outside of my head. It was like right outside my ear. Is christianity real? ahhhh..lol and all my episodes are christan-related. Like having billy graham's voice yell at me, audibly, inside my head.. so much more. Like walls talking to me telling me my family will get saved if I get baptized.. my life sucks; what a fuck show. I know you don't know what I mean by silent voices.. but I hope you somewhat understand. The brain voices? I don't know how to describe them. My brain is pooched. Feel pity on me.. unlike sane converted jesus freaks, I deserve it. What were you non-schizophrenics really thinking? There done editing. May science be with you.
When I did a prayer to accept jebus, with some christian dudes, I heard a voice in my ear talk all this religious jibber-jabber right at that very moment. First voice, ever. And I wasn't diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder at that time. The timing was very, very terrible. Who wouldn't believe? Right that second I heard a voice for the first time ever? I still get a little skeptical about my athiest conversion, since the timing just seems so terrible. It's like some "god" was fucking with me, or something. I pretty much brainwashed myself and got really into the thought of everything being evil and terrible. I still have habits.. like when I check out chicks.. OH DON'T LOOK THERE!... oh, his name in vein!..etc. Really, feel sorry for me. You don't think, when it happens at that moment, that you're schizophrenic. Oh, I'm just schizophrenic, moving on. Especially when you knew jackshit about voices or people ill with it. It was so fucking terrible.
FEEL MY DAMN PAIN. All you fellow anti-christs would have believed, too. You know what still scares me? I've never again had a silent voice outside my head. I've heard audible things outside my head. I've never ..again.. had silent voices outside of my head. It was like right outside my ear. Is christianity real? ahhhh..lol and all my episodes are christan-related. Like having billy graham's voice yell at me, audibly, inside my head.. so much more. Like walls talking to me telling me my family will get saved if I get baptized.. my life sucks; what a fuck show. I know you don't know what I mean by silent voices.. but I hope you somewhat understand. The brain voices? I don't know how to describe them. My brain is pooched. Feel pity on me.. unlike sane converted jesus freaks, I deserve it. What were you non-schizophrenics really thinking? There done editing. May science be with you.
I hate the bible. I love that do as thy whilst stuff.
