Converted into Athiesm - My Story

[coolfunkDJ]

Hi, so I am 14 at the moment, but I have been questioning God since I was 12

What I am about to talk about all happened through a span of 2 years:

It all started when I found some flaws in the religion, like why would God ask Abraham to kill his son, if killing is against the 10 commandments? Double standards much? I mean that was the big one, but there was a lot

The only thing which kept me going was what I realise now is the "Placebo Effect", Thinking that God was talking to me and showing me signs through prayer, that when I asked him to help me with something, he would help

But The major pusher was when I started to think "What would happen if, in these situations, I dont prayer to God", and, unsuprisingly, no different, its a placebo (The brain tricking me into thinking its doing what im expecting it to do), so this is when I felt angry with myself

And then more and more thoughts started to pop up like:
If God loves us all, why would he let us burn in hell
Also, if he loves us, why did he flood so much more people than an earthquake, natural disaster or terrorist attack
And if he had no problem with doing that, why didnt he kill Adam And Eve?

And only one answer came into my head:
He didnt

This is when I felt betrayed, Angry, my parents was unintentionally lying to me, I have been limited to what I do and not been living my life to the fullest because of supernatural things, wasting my life at church

And thats why I became an Athiest
Please, tell me what you think, thank you!