Fear of letting go?
May 31, 2019 at 2:40 am
(This post was last modified: May 31, 2019 at 2:41 am by SlowCalculations.)
Hello, I've been looking for a place to discuss my thoughts again I've never gone to church's as an adult or anything i'm not devoted to anything i basically told everyone i didn't believe as a child and as a teenager. But for a while iv'e had a fear of "Hell" that's always succeeded to scare the crap out of me even though this has been rehashed and debunked over and over again but iv'e not had that problem for a while because i'm not focused on it and i believe it's just some kind of mental thing i have to learn to get over it. What iv'e recently been struggling with is actually entirely different i'm getting to the point where i want to let go of the idea of "Spirituality" as in the supernatural and that's something i'd never thought i'd find myself admitting or saying. I realize this is silly but i'm scared of letting go and there being "Nothing" if that makes sense? any advice or help with this fear would be great.
Iv'e been trying to convince myself that nothings not the end but it sorta is, and isn't....i don't want to see myself as dust to be honest....i'm supposed to be comforted by this yet i'm not. I'm more angry i can't get over this as quickly as i'd prefer because i feel it's been long enough and i'm going in a repeated cycle brake out of the fear of hell? jump into the fear of letting go and realizing the end is truly the end that should be motivating right? Now i'm rambling and i'll let people reply or not reply.
(I'm sorry for my bad grammar and spelling)
Iv'e been trying to convince myself that nothings not the end but it sorta is, and isn't....i don't want to see myself as dust to be honest....i'm supposed to be comforted by this yet i'm not. I'm more angry i can't get over this as quickly as i'd prefer because i feel it's been long enough and i'm going in a repeated cycle brake out of the fear of hell? jump into the fear of letting go and realizing the end is truly the end that should be motivating right? Now i'm rambling and i'll let people reply or not reply.
(I'm sorry for my bad grammar and spelling)