AtcAtheist Wrote:Here is where I think the change started - I started asking questions! I asked them only to myself, but I wanted answers. Why does God do this? Why doesn't God do that? Are my prayers really heard? I would find good generic answers like, god is in control, it is his will, trust him, etc... So I continued trying to believe, wanting to believe... But something just didn't feel right.
About two or three weeks ago, a light suddenly came on and I said to myself - what the hell am I doing with my life - I believe what exactly?? And for the first time in 35 years, I looked at myself and my religion from outside the bubble. And WOW, what an eye-opener! I started digging into the Bible, trying to question everything I thought I 'knew'. And the deeper I dug, the more shocking stuff I found. Holy shit (pun intended), there is a lot of wacky stuff in that book. Stuff crazier than fairy tales and Santa Claus. This God that I always thought was loving and caring is really a mean, deceptive, selfish control freak. Why would we create such a character and force people to worship him??
THIS.
I went through a similar thought process. I realised one day that my faith was based on what I kept hearing from other people, so I decided to find out for myself what it was that I believed.
Being so confident in my religion I thought I would kill two birds with one stone (YHWH style) and become an apologist as I learnt more and more why Christianity is flawless. Long story short, 'god' had different plans for me!
"It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it" ~ Aristotle
