so sorry, Stimbo
I could never imagine what it's like to be in your shoes. All I can say is that I've been going through multiple personal situations lately and I have made the decision of chugging it all down with alcohol. Lots of it. I know it's a decision, because I know what I'm doing when I go out and buy it, then come back home, then go outside and sit down to drink my thoughts away. I don't feel the urge to do it. I just tell myself that I will just do it for the heck of it. I haven't solved anything. I haven't come up with any solutions. I just.. I just can't think of anything else to do. I feel powerless.
When I'm not drinking I can rationalize and control my emotions. I make sound judgments and cope well with everything. When I drink I feel everything five times stronger. The pain isn't going anywhere. If anything, it's getting worse. I say I should stop drinking every night. I've been having a beer or two with dinner, another with my homework (or two), and then the rest outside. So I start pretty much around seven and finish at around one or two. Every day. I suppose I know what to do. I have to think of something to do for coping instead of this. I hope you can find something, too. I imagine your pain is horrible. I'm sorry. I don't know what that's like. I wish I had something better to say, but all I can do is tell you that perhaps we should drink less. You are a very kind man and I would hate to know that you are hurting yourself more and more. The world loves you. Keep yourself healthy.
I could never imagine what it's like to be in your shoes. All I can say is that I've been going through multiple personal situations lately and I have made the decision of chugging it all down with alcohol. Lots of it. I know it's a decision, because I know what I'm doing when I go out and buy it, then come back home, then go outside and sit down to drink my thoughts away. I don't feel the urge to do it. I just tell myself that I will just do it for the heck of it. I haven't solved anything. I haven't come up with any solutions. I just.. I just can't think of anything else to do. I feel powerless.
When I'm not drinking I can rationalize and control my emotions. I make sound judgments and cope well with everything. When I drink I feel everything five times stronger. The pain isn't going anywhere. If anything, it's getting worse. I say I should stop drinking every night. I've been having a beer or two with dinner, another with my homework (or two), and then the rest outside. So I start pretty much around seven and finish at around one or two. Every day. I suppose I know what to do. I have to think of something to do for coping instead of this. I hope you can find something, too. I imagine your pain is horrible. I'm sorry. I don't know what that's like. I wish I had something better to say, but all I can do is tell you that perhaps we should drink less. You are a very kind man and I would hate to know that you are hurting yourself more and more. The world loves you. Keep yourself healthy.
Pointing around: "Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, fuck you, I'm out!"
Half Baked
"Let the atheists come to me, and stop keeping them away, because the kingdom of heathens belongs to people like these." -Saint Bacon
Half Baked
"Let the atheists come to me, and stop keeping them away, because the kingdom of heathens belongs to people like these." -Saint Bacon