RE: The Newly Departed thread: announcements (departures)
October 23, 2016 at 2:18 am
(This post was last modified: October 23, 2016 at 2:19 am by robvalue.)
Alright, well. I should say a bit more here.
I left because being on the site was making me feel physically sick and it was going to affect my mental health, due to how I perceived the situation. I realise now I almost certainly did not have an accurate picture in my mind. But I had no choice but to leave. I respect people here too much to just slink away without saying anything. It wasn't a case of running away, it was a case of looking after my health. In some ways I'm strong, in others I'm very vulnerable and I could easily spiral into the depths of depression.
I agree that I handled things badly in the staff area. I was extremely emotional, for lots of reasons. Mostly reasons I can't share. I was reaching the end of my tether, I see that now. I was mostly making valid points which I still stand by. I started the discussion about these, but it began in the worst possible way for me, coming up against firm resistance which I found unreasonable. In my uneven state, I took this as being representative. I was feeling ill already by this stage and unable to read much more of the discussion.
So I handled it all really badly, I admit. I should have listened to more people. I should have waited longer. But waiting was making me ill too, I had to tie it off.
The rule I explicitly complained about here is one I'm surprised there even needs to be a rule for, and I don't know how it can't have already been established. But again I should have handled this better. I was outraged people were disagreeing with me about it in the staff area. If in fact they were not, and everyone wanted this to be a rule and just needed time, then I've been a total wanker about it and misread the situation. I have conversations in my mind where people opposed this point, but I can't verify them now.
So I'm sorry again to everyone that I handled everything pretty badly. I'm not sorry I made this particular rule a focus for the forum, but the way I went about it was shit. My tone towards the staff was unwarranted.
I want to particularly apologise to Brewer, for apologising too much. I express much regret that British people are bred this way, and I have been custom buit to be on the more extreme end. I'm sorry about that also. I'm sorry I apologise too much. My conscience weighs heavier on me, whatever actions I take, than any judgement or punishment another could give. So my apologies again for wasting your time with apologies.
I left because being on the site was making me feel physically sick and it was going to affect my mental health, due to how I perceived the situation. I realise now I almost certainly did not have an accurate picture in my mind. But I had no choice but to leave. I respect people here too much to just slink away without saying anything. It wasn't a case of running away, it was a case of looking after my health. In some ways I'm strong, in others I'm very vulnerable and I could easily spiral into the depths of depression.
I agree that I handled things badly in the staff area. I was extremely emotional, for lots of reasons. Mostly reasons I can't share. I was reaching the end of my tether, I see that now. I was mostly making valid points which I still stand by. I started the discussion about these, but it began in the worst possible way for me, coming up against firm resistance which I found unreasonable. In my uneven state, I took this as being representative. I was feeling ill already by this stage and unable to read much more of the discussion.
So I handled it all really badly, I admit. I should have listened to more people. I should have waited longer. But waiting was making me ill too, I had to tie it off.
The rule I explicitly complained about here is one I'm surprised there even needs to be a rule for, and I don't know how it can't have already been established. But again I should have handled this better. I was outraged people were disagreeing with me about it in the staff area. If in fact they were not, and everyone wanted this to be a rule and just needed time, then I've been a total wanker about it and misread the situation. I have conversations in my mind where people opposed this point, but I can't verify them now.
So I'm sorry again to everyone that I handled everything pretty badly. I'm not sorry I made this particular rule a focus for the forum, but the way I went about it was shit. My tone towards the staff was unwarranted.
I want to particularly apologise to Brewer, for apologising too much. I express much regret that British people are bred this way, and I have been custom buit to be on the more extreme end. I'm sorry about that also. I'm sorry I apologise too much. My conscience weighs heavier on me, whatever actions I take, than any judgement or punishment another could give. So my apologies again for wasting your time with apologies.
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