RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Now?
January 15, 2016 at 12:11 pm
(This post was last modified: January 15, 2016 at 12:14 pm by Thumpalumpacus.)
I'm two weeks into my sobriety -- today is day 15. I'm finding it isn't nearly as hard with the right mindset. When I went a month sober back in Oct/Nov, I was sober -- but I was not in recovery, which is a different thing, fixing what makes me turn to intoxication in the first place. I'm digging into the reasons why now, using a combination of support group, close friends who've been there, and songwriting so's I can dig up those hidden feelings and air them out.
I feel great now -- I wake up in the morning without a cloudy head, I feel all my feelings for better or worse, and deal with reality on its own terms -- not something an addict does very easily. I'm finding that sometimes my feelings are pretty fucking sensitive, and the practice of telling myself to shut the fuck up and get on with it is a healthy one, too. I still have my bad days, and still hear my addict's voice whispering sweet temptation in my head, but it's much easier for me now to lock him out in the miserable cold, where the sonofabitch kept me for so fucking long. Turnabout's fair play.
I started work yesterday building a speaker cabinet for a guitar amplifier I'll be buying soon. That's going to be fun, too. After four+ years playing acoustic-only, it's going to feel great feeling my pants-legs flapping in a 40-watt breeze. I'll be doing more work on the cab today, taking pictures as I go, and I'll put up a thread about it once finished.
I feel great now -- I wake up in the morning without a cloudy head, I feel all my feelings for better or worse, and deal with reality on its own terms -- not something an addict does very easily. I'm finding that sometimes my feelings are pretty fucking sensitive, and the practice of telling myself to shut the fuck up and get on with it is a healthy one, too. I still have my bad days, and still hear my addict's voice whispering sweet temptation in my head, but it's much easier for me now to lock him out in the miserable cold, where the sonofabitch kept me for so fucking long. Turnabout's fair play.
I started work yesterday building a speaker cabinet for a guitar amplifier I'll be buying soon. That's going to be fun, too. After four+ years playing acoustic-only, it's going to feel great feeling my pants-legs flapping in a 40-watt breeze. I'll be doing more work on the cab today, taking pictures as I go, and I'll put up a thread about it once finished.