RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
August 28, 2016 at 5:03 am
(This post was last modified: August 28, 2016 at 5:11 am by Edwardo Piet.)
Feeling like this again, with bolding added.
I can't express myself as well as I did back then, so I'd rather just quote this from my previous thread than try to explain it. I'm feeling the same only more subdued and dislillusioned. I'm feeling far less positive about RL than I was back then so I'm certainly not going to take a break from the internet, Skype or AF. Good news is I'm closer to my friends than ever so I'll be there to respond on Skype, I just won't take the lead, as said in bold.
(December 16, 2015 at 9:09 pm)Alasdair Ham Wrote: [...]
I don't know what it is but I feel like I need a break from the forums for a few days. And maybe even the internet altogether. Or maybe I'll respond to Skype and Facebook messages but not take the lead.
I feel like I need a few days break to just cry over and over. I don't know what it is but I feel like a big part of me that matters a lot to me has gone. I feel like the enthusiastic happy Evie isn't there anymore. I feel like all the irritating and lame parts of me is all that remains. I feel like when people care about me and like me still it's because they haven't caught on what an idiot I've become lately.
I feel like each person who cares about me and is a good friend to me has a tiny part of them that knows this is all true. But it's like, they don't want to beieve it because they want to believe the happy cheerful nice and kind and lovable and interesting Evie is still here. But I don't think he is anymore. Well, I may still be kind and I care. But that's about it I feel like everything I say is a cliché, lame, uninteresting, unfunny, unsexy and pointless.
I feel like it's only a matter of time before people not only get bored of me, but find some reason to avoid me. I know many people care about me and love me and think a lot of me... but at this rate how long will that last?
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I can't express myself as well as I did back then, so I'd rather just quote this from my previous thread than try to explain it. I'm feeling the same only more subdued and dislillusioned. I'm feeling far less positive about RL than I was back then so I'm certainly not going to take a break from the internet, Skype or AF. Good news is I'm closer to my friends than ever so I'll be there to respond on Skype, I just won't take the lead, as said in bold.