RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
August 23, 2016 at 12:03 pm
(This post was last modified: August 23, 2016 at 12:05 pm by Edwardo Piet.)
(August 23, 2016 at 12:22 am)Mamacita Wrote: Can I just say...
All I want is for everyone to be happy. Thing is, I'm going through shit right now. I can't let anything in that may hurt more. A very lovely girl was sad today and when I was trying to be supportive, I realized my advise should also work for me. I don't want to be selfish with my friends, but if you keep misreading me when all I'm trying to do is take care of you, be your friend, and smile, then I have empty hands. This is what I am. There's no code. No need to decipher me. No need to try and see what I "really" mean. If I like you, I do. If I want to be your friend, I do. If you fuck up and I offer more chances, I mean it. I fuck up all the time. I'm eccentric. My head is not screwed in right. I get it. We all have bad days. Just don't purposely push a blade in my wound to hurt me, because my survival instincts kick in. I will protect myself.
My hugs don't come with a Judas kiss. They just come with lipstick stains. Having said that... I'm still feeling sucky. I'll go curl up and cry now. And no, this isn't anyone's fault. Shit happens.
Peace, love, bacon,
Swag bong
CIJSAIJBH
This was beautiful.
I fuck up a lot sometimes too. I sometimes even feel like I am a "fuck-up" because everything is so perfect and they I did havz a silly.
I am so lucky to be so very loved and to have such awesome friends. All the wonderful moments with my wonderful friends make all my silly-turtley-fuckupness worthwhile.
Also on the whole I am such a happy person and I feel honored that I can bring goodness to my closest friends too. I treasure it all so very much.
And when it comes to my own Ididhavzasilliness, I'm getting there.
And let's face it I'm pretty much always around
I love my friends.