(October 6, 2016 at 12:11 pm)robvalue Wrote: Good news: I saw the surgeon today. I should hopefully have surgery at the end of November, which will improve my health and allow me to eat a proper diet again.
Bad news: I'm so depressed I don't even care. I'd rather she said she was going to cut my head off. A truck was waiting to pull out on the duel carriageway coming the other way and I wanted it to. Finish me off please. It wouldn't be my fault.
I barely enjoy anything. I do things to keep myself sane. There are very, very few things that give me any pleasure. There's only a few other things I actually want, that would actually bring me some sort of excitement and sense of feeling alive. But almost all of them, I can't have. If I tried to have them, I'd be facing a cost which was too high, to myself and/or others. I'm stuck feeling fucking miserable. And to make it worse, I have the perfect wife. I should be happy. I have everything I should need, right here. Yet this is how I feel.
It breaks my heart when you talk like this, Rob. [emoji45] I hope that once you at able to eat normally your mood will improve. So many people love you; I wish you felt better. *hugs*.
Nay_Sayer: “Nothing is impossible if you dream big enough, or in this case, nothing is impossible if you use a barrel of KY Jelly and a miniature horse.”
Wiser words were never spoken.
Wiser words were never spoken.