RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
October 28, 2016 at 6:52 pm
(This post was last modified: October 28, 2016 at 6:59 pm by Edwardo Piet.)
CIJS I hope Thump is having an amazing birthday.
And, for completely unrelated reasons, although I am indeed very glad it's his birthday and hope he is having an awesome one: I'm happy as fuck again I don't feel shitty about myself anymore all thanks to awesome friendship!
P.S. MY EMOTIONS ARE INTENSE.
P.P.S. I wish they weren't so transient, fleeting or IOW shallow, though (my emotions that is). ETA: Or do I? I do like how they change so quickly. I dunno. Fuck it I love the way I am even if it does make me highly understood. Pointless not loving the way I am. No use fighting against myself and loving myself makes me happier than merely neutrally accepting myself. As long as my self-love is not arrogant. Which it's not. I don't feel remotely superior, all the people I care about I regard more highly than myself... it's like "Yes I'm awesome, I must be to be deemed worthy of being a friend by such an awesome person as yourself. But you're more awesome than me and so are my other close friends whether they're mutual friends or not."
P.P.P.S. I'm so glad that it isn't only narcissists, sociopaths or psychopaths who have shallow affect if I do indeed have it. I do wonder sometimes if I have shallow affect. Like intense feelings but extremely fleeting ones. Would make a lot of sense. It would explain why in the past I have been 100% honest and genuine as fuck about my emotions but been wrongly accused of "playacting" which really hurt me because I'm being fully honest and genuine about all my emotions... but supposedly people with shallow affect are wrongly misunderstood as playacting because it seems that way to normal folks with deep affect.
And, for completely unrelated reasons, although I am indeed very glad it's his birthday and hope he is having an awesome one: I'm happy as fuck again I don't feel shitty about myself anymore all thanks to awesome friendship!
P.S. MY EMOTIONS ARE INTENSE.
P.P.S. I wish they weren't so transient, fleeting or IOW shallow, though (my emotions that is). ETA: Or do I? I do like how they change so quickly. I dunno. Fuck it I love the way I am even if it does make me highly understood. Pointless not loving the way I am. No use fighting against myself and loving myself makes me happier than merely neutrally accepting myself. As long as my self-love is not arrogant. Which it's not. I don't feel remotely superior, all the people I care about I regard more highly than myself... it's like "Yes I'm awesome, I must be to be deemed worthy of being a friend by such an awesome person as yourself. But you're more awesome than me and so are my other close friends whether they're mutual friends or not."
P.P.P.S. I'm so glad that it isn't only narcissists, sociopaths or psychopaths who have shallow affect if I do indeed have it. I do wonder sometimes if I have shallow affect. Like intense feelings but extremely fleeting ones. Would make a lot of sense. It would explain why in the past I have been 100% honest and genuine as fuck about my emotions but been wrongly accused of "playacting" which really hurt me because I'm being fully honest and genuine about all my emotions... but supposedly people with shallow affect are wrongly misunderstood as playacting because it seems that way to normal folks with deep affect.