RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
November 26, 2016 at 5:07 pm
(This post was last modified: November 26, 2016 at 5:08 pm by Edwardo Piet.)
(November 25, 2016 at 8:57 pm)Alasdair Ham Wrote: CIJS
MY O.C.D. HAS TEMPORARILY TURNED OFF
Holy crap and I felt free for a few hours... so fucking free. But rather uneasy.
The uneasiness became emptiness. My life felt meaningless. My depression got worse and worse until a few minutes ago when a new compulsion hit me and now I feel super alive and safe and stable and comforted again.
That's messed up. Without my compulsions I feel dead and alone and like I'm wandering through pointlessness.
Anyway, I guess it's all about managing it.
I have had them since I was 12 year old so I suppose they are such a part of me now that I don't feel alive without them. I just have to moderate this next one.