Is love real?

[brewer]

I am generally an amiable person, it takes a lot to piss me off. But my rage feels very dark and intense, almost like flexing a muscle you haven't used in a long time. My anger is rare and strange, it feels really weird to be angry, uncanny even. I hate feeling that way.

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Then I'm cruel. I don't consider it a good idea to enable people with mental health disorders. "Zero control" in mental health is a statement that I can't let slide.

Why do you care?

You would not have been diagnosed without you negatively impacting either yourself or those around you, probably both. Lacking insight regarding your condition may result in negative consequences. Thinking that "zero control" is OK needs to be addressed.