(January 13, 2018 at 10:00 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote:(January 13, 2018 at 8:16 pm)MysticKnight Wrote: They are the least people who can help me, they won't understand, I see things clearly the past to now, is no longer obscure. I know the track I was on and I know I must continue to do what I set myself out to do.
They will like you tell me I was a kid. There is no changing it but they don't believe in scolding the soul, they just try to help us cope, I don't want to cope, I want it erased from my book of deeds, I don't care if I have to cry a lot and laugh little, not enjoy food as much as I use to, I don't care what I have to do, but I will make Satan and his forces regret inspiring me with that deed as a kid, I will make them regret it when I live a life trying to enlighten human beings and help them, and I will redeem myself in all that and it doesn't matter, I know I can't laugh as much as I use to when I forgot. I know I will never see my self like I use to.
But I don't want to accept myself. I don't want their analysis of all the good I've done which always mixed with Worship of the dark enemy to humanity and valuing his identity linked to me as just as important as God.
I can't act out of love for myself anymore, it must be love of God and his chosen ones.
God forgives instantly and completely for any and all actions so long as there is true remorse. There is no doubt in my mind that you feel truly sorry for whatever it was you did. I think you need to trust in God's love and mercy and move on. He does not want you to feel this way about yourself.
MK does not believe that.
