(July 7, 2012 at 3:31 pm)Violet Lilly Blossom Wrote: It's pretty damn awesome, if also completely gag inducing. I spent most of the night asking my family questions I'd never even thought to ask of them before, hearing awesome and sad and horrible and upsetting and hilarious stories told by various people, hugging people both when I became tipsy and with my standard wiggle hug that nearly toppled them over, and feeling warmer than every other person there (we took a short dip in the inlet, I barely registered the same cold that was making them all bitch).
Damn but I'm an adorable drunk. I actually can't wait to do that again, the drinking is totally optional on my part, but I want to be able to have that kind of emotional connection with my family.
So I got a little dirty getting up the bluff, and a little more dirty getting down, and I took a full body dip in the inlet. So fucking what? I had a blast, and I realize that if I simply do not register the dirt and the challenge of the climb, and just do it... I won't even notice that shit
I'm officially done caring about so much shit... sure, I harbor a few feelings of insecurity, of severe disappointment, of embarrassment, of resentment, and other such shit... but this was an amazing night for me, and most of those feelings have faded far away.
I intend to keep it that way. Stay fuzzy, yall.
Be careful with this. There is nothing wrong with letting lose. But alcohol is a drug just like nicotine. I wouldn't depend on it every time you get stressed. And I can tell you having been 17 myself at one time, I did some really stupid shit because "I didn't care" and was having fun getting drunk.
Life is not a movie. You can lose your inhibitions and do stuff you normally would not do in a lucid state. Jails are full of people who "just wanted to have fun" and people can and do get others physically harmed or killed because of booze.
You are way too young to say " damn that was fun". I thought that too when I had my parties. But if my drinking buddies had drove home drunk, or killed someone, not only would have I been in trouble, but my mother as well, who was a retired teacher.
I look back at it now and youth is a horrible thing to go through. We want to be ourselves, but we want to fit in, and we want to release all the angst around us.
I'm not going to say don't drink ever, just wait till you are legal, because at some point you will be of legal age. I will say, EVERYTHING in moderation, and don't use booze as a crutch. Nothing is worth losing your drivers license or freedom, "just to have fun".