(March 17, 2014 at 3:51 pm)Thunder Cunt Wrote: Did you make much physical contact with your Mother? Sometimes a lack of maternal affection can lead to an extreme sensitivity to the touch of a female leading to a need which is then sexualized.Well, when I was younger, I was angry with my mother because I didn't understand why she would let me go with my biological father every other weekend when she knew how he was. I knew they had a legal agreement that required this visitation, but I didn't see why we couldn't just run away to Mexico or something.
Did you see other women as mysterious and exoctic. I bet you enjoyed the restrooms like a boy in the girls lockeroom.
Additionally, I would come home so angry and physically violent. I lashed out on the people that I knew would love me anyway - my mom and my brother.
We had some tender moments, but to be honest, a lot of our physical contact was violent.
No, it wasn't that. I thought of women as being like angels, protectors who were good.
I didn't have much interest in girls my own age, except for one. My best friend that I met in 1st grade. It was love at first sight, and that love only grew over the years of our friendship. She was my first kiss. After that kiss, all I wanted was to do it again. And then I hit puberty, and I wanted her, but I knew she couldn't feel the same way because she hadn't hit puberty yet. She was also a Christian, and I didn't want her to have to choose between God and me, so when I started homeschooling, I let us drift apart.
