I'm not a teenager, I'm 25. My situation snuck up on me too. Not only was I not planning on it, but I was planning on not having it. I made it abundantly clear that it was something I didn't want. Not only clear to him, but to every person that I spoke to in a more intimate way. Everyone who I saw as a close friend knew that any feelings beyond friendship were off the table for me. Then out of nowhere I found myself wanting to talk to him more. Loving the sound of his voice. Hanging on his words. Being impacted by them in ways that anyone else saying the same thing to me wouldn't have had an effect, or at least not that effect. At first I rejected the feelings. No it just means we are really good friends. Anything more than that isn't an option. Eventually, I accepted that I wanted so much more than that and that anything less was simply not enough. I decided to let go and just go with those feelings. I'm really glad I did. In the midst of all the other parts of my life crashing down, I have this thing that we have as something I can hold on to. And I am actually happy for the first time in a long time. 
Well, I will stop talking like a lovesick teenager now and let you get back to thinking about your guy.
Well, I will stop talking like a lovesick teenager now and let you get back to thinking about your guy.
