Okay, first off, I didn't know where to put this; there isn't really a section in the forum for when any of us have a breakdown. And second, I know I haven't been online in a very long time. I've been busy, is all.
Anyway, as the thread subject suggests, I am having a case of double depression; an event which, as some of you might know, is fucking awful. If you don't know what double depression is, it's basically a big, fat depression cake. Sometimes people suffer an episode of major depression on top of an already existing case of Dysthymia.
My mind is going downhill quite sharply. I've decided to not have any relationships or children, as my brain has decided that it has to put up with enough people as it is and doesn't need any more on top of them. I've been depriving myself of sleep because I find the eventual hallucinations entertaining. My disdain for other people has grown significantly stronger. All that coupled with the fact that I now officially have late-onset OCD means I'm going bloody batshit.
I'm sure I'll get better in a day or so, but I need something until then. I'm not entirely sure what; I just need something.
Anyway, as the thread subject suggests, I am having a case of double depression; an event which, as some of you might know, is fucking awful. If you don't know what double depression is, it's basically a big, fat depression cake. Sometimes people suffer an episode of major depression on top of an already existing case of Dysthymia.
My mind is going downhill quite sharply. I've decided to not have any relationships or children, as my brain has decided that it has to put up with enough people as it is and doesn't need any more on top of them. I've been depriving myself of sleep because I find the eventual hallucinations entertaining. My disdain for other people has grown significantly stronger. All that coupled with the fact that I now officially have late-onset OCD means I'm going bloody batshit.
I'm sure I'll get better in a day or so, but I need something until then. I'm not entirely sure what; I just need something.
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