Nestor, a couple more things.
First, a bit of stoic wisdom for you. You have a choice. You can spend your life worrying about death, and then die. Or, you can spend your life not worrying about death, and then die. What you can't choose is to not die. Which of the choices available to you is the better choice?
Remind yourself of that as often as needed.
Now, go and do something that might get your girlfriend to smile sweetly at you.
First, a bit of stoic wisdom for you. You have a choice. You can spend your life worrying about death, and then die. Or, you can spend your life not worrying about death, and then die. What you can't choose is to not die. Which of the choices available to you is the better choice?
Remind yourself of that as often as needed.
Now, go and do something that might get your girlfriend to smile sweetly at you.
"A wise man ... proportions his belief to the evidence."
— David Hume, An Enquiry Concerning Human Understanding, Section X, Part I.