Feeling and ramblings:
I'm very vulnerable sometimes... but I'm still feeling empowered. Oh wow.
Amazing. Incredible. Strong. Hopeful.
When I'm venting it's so hard for me to be there for others. I keep trying but I don't stop I get so damn emotional.
At least when I don't need to vent I don't need to AT ALL and I can be there 100% for everyone
I'm the kind of person who...... I either struggle to be there for my friends at all or I can be there like 100%. I'm very all or nothing.
Woot.
Thinking about the number 14 today. It's my favorite for so very very many reasons. One my favorite birthday was my 14th. Two it's a number I type to make my favorite 'In game taunt' for my favorite game of all time. Three I get money every 14 days. Four 7 is supposed to be a lucky number but it's the first multiple of 7 that is an even number and I prefer even numbers so much more. I'm sure there are many more reasons. I associate beauty with that number...
...Us silly humans and our associating feelings to things even when we fully recognize it's irrational eh? Well at least I only feel it and don't believe it actually has any significant meaning. It's a number. The number 14. But I just have emotional associations with it. Anyways....
I overcomplicate everything. I try so hard to clarify stuff. I frustrate myself how I am sometimes.
And I hope I never frustrate anyone with my own stupidity. I'm very smart in some ways but I can be stupid too sometimes
My mind is open to anyone kind and lovely enough to let me be the kind of friend they want me to be. And it's especially easy when it's a friend who has only ever been lovely to me.
I try not to make assumptions but some assumptions are reasonable to make so by not making them I seem slow. I shut my brain off to even obvious assumptions sometimes.
I would never call a person I care about stupid. Except myself but that's only because I can't really offend myself lol.
I don't treat people as I would have them treat me. I treat people how they like to be treated. I prefer not to make assumptions so I like to simply... ask people how they like to be treated and what kind of friend they want
I like complementariness. I don't expect people to be fair in the sense of 'same' because everyone is different. I wouldn't expect any two particular friends to both be heads or both be tails on a coin. It's okay to be heads and tails. It's good to complement and just harmonize that's how I feel. Embrace differences and enjoy similarities.
I like it when I elaborate.
I love having two convos at once. It is stimulating
It's the mind I find most beautiful of all.
Feel free to... to whatever. Feel free to be my lovely friends! As you do. Just Got To Be.
I'd love to play with you whoever you be if you'd love to play with me whoever me be.
This is one of my weaknesses in life I think. It's both a strength and a weakness. My openness to many possibilities. It's a strength because my options are open but it is a weakness because I can never make my mind up lol.
Turtle heart for AF:
My day is indeed bright.
And you're all so sweet.
Anyway hehe... bye. Hehe.
I'm very vulnerable sometimes... but I'm still feeling empowered. Oh wow.
Amazing. Incredible. Strong. Hopeful.
When I'm venting it's so hard for me to be there for others. I keep trying but I don't stop I get so damn emotional.
At least when I don't need to vent I don't need to AT ALL and I can be there 100% for everyone
I'm the kind of person who...... I either struggle to be there for my friends at all or I can be there like 100%. I'm very all or nothing.
Woot.
Thinking about the number 14 today. It's my favorite for so very very many reasons. One my favorite birthday was my 14th. Two it's a number I type to make my favorite 'In game taunt' for my favorite game of all time. Three I get money every 14 days. Four 7 is supposed to be a lucky number but it's the first multiple of 7 that is an even number and I prefer even numbers so much more. I'm sure there are many more reasons. I associate beauty with that number...
...Us silly humans and our associating feelings to things even when we fully recognize it's irrational eh? Well at least I only feel it and don't believe it actually has any significant meaning. It's a number. The number 14. But I just have emotional associations with it. Anyways....
I overcomplicate everything. I try so hard to clarify stuff. I frustrate myself how I am sometimes.
And I hope I never frustrate anyone with my own stupidity. I'm very smart in some ways but I can be stupid too sometimes
My mind is open to anyone kind and lovely enough to let me be the kind of friend they want me to be. And it's especially easy when it's a friend who has only ever been lovely to me.
I try not to make assumptions but some assumptions are reasonable to make so by not making them I seem slow. I shut my brain off to even obvious assumptions sometimes.
I would never call a person I care about stupid. Except myself but that's only because I can't really offend myself lol.
I don't treat people as I would have them treat me. I treat people how they like to be treated. I prefer not to make assumptions so I like to simply... ask people how they like to be treated and what kind of friend they want
I like complementariness. I don't expect people to be fair in the sense of 'same' because everyone is different. I wouldn't expect any two particular friends to both be heads or both be tails on a coin. It's okay to be heads and tails. It's good to complement and just harmonize that's how I feel. Embrace differences and enjoy similarities.
I like it when I elaborate.
I love having two convos at once. It is stimulating
It's the mind I find most beautiful of all.
Feel free to... to whatever. Feel free to be my lovely friends! As you do. Just Got To Be.
I'd love to play with you whoever you be if you'd love to play with me whoever me be.
This is one of my weaknesses in life I think. It's both a strength and a weakness. My openness to many possibilities. It's a strength because my options are open but it is a weakness because I can never make my mind up lol.
Turtle heart for AF:
My day is indeed bright.
And you're all so sweet.
Anyway hehe... bye. Hehe.