Right to Die

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Thank you to those who answered my hypothetical I find the answers very interesting.

I've craved death and spent all day thinking about nothing but suicide, at times in my life. Somehow, I never got as far as making any actual plans. But it would have been as easy as pie, and I wouldn't have blamed myself. It's puzzling to me how I made it through.

I'm still troubled by suicidal thoughts, but they are now much more in check. There has only been one time when I think I genuinely might have killed myself. It was that incident when I went to A+E due to a stomach blockage, after being deprived of sleep and in constant pain for 24 hours+ on top of everything else. I had what felt like some sort of breakdown (my therapist didn't think this was an accurate description though) and I felt like I had lost my mind and would never get it back. I was so desperate to die, that I think I would have jumped off a cliff had one been available, without a second thought.

I am glad I was "restrained", so to speak, during this episode. I was in an environment where they could easily stop me harming myself. But if the diagnosis was that I had actually snapped, and the chances of me regaining lucidity were slim to none, I would definitely have preferred they let me kill myself than live like that.