CIJS - I feel... I don't know exactly how I feel. Maybe used in a way? Led on? Definitely lied to. Not quite sure how to process all of the shit that happened today. And it wasn't much. Just a couple of questions and a few poorly worded pathetic sounding insults that made me laugh more than anything.
Oh... and the threat? Understand now, honey, that I control more in my house than you know. Your attempt to discredit me in my own house got nipped in the bud within minutes of you stating your intentions. You may have issues in your house, sweetie, but don't you dare bring your drama into mine. For just as much as you were lied to, so was I.
I'm actually in a better place mentally NOW, than before when I wasn't sure if participating was the right thing to do. There were too many unknowns before. But now, it's over and done with and I'm okay with it all though because it helped me realize that trust is earned and I gave my trust away too easily. Not anymore though. Just one more life lesson to be learned as I go along waiting for the day I die.
And in case you're reading because of some strange inability to keep prying elsewhere now that you no longer have access to what you did before - my flabby self did just fine when it mattered. And since I know you've been visiting a number of times today - I have my ways of knowing things. Coming from a mafia family has its perks now and again because I learned a few tips and tricks way back when.
Ciao.
Oh... and the threat? Understand now, honey, that I control more in my house than you know. Your attempt to discredit me in my own house got nipped in the bud within minutes of you stating your intentions. You may have issues in your house, sweetie, but don't you dare bring your drama into mine. For just as much as you were lied to, so was I.
I'm actually in a better place mentally NOW, than before when I wasn't sure if participating was the right thing to do. There were too many unknowns before. But now, it's over and done with and I'm okay with it all though because it helped me realize that trust is earned and I gave my trust away too easily. Not anymore though. Just one more life lesson to be learned as I go along waiting for the day I die.
And in case you're reading because of some strange inability to keep prying elsewhere now that you no longer have access to what you did before - my flabby self did just fine when it mattered. And since I know you've been visiting a number of times today - I have my ways of knowing things. Coming from a mafia family has its perks now and again because I learned a few tips and tricks way back when.
Ciao.
Disclaimer: I am only responsible for what I say, not what you choose to understand.