Existential anxiety due to religion...

[Zenith]

to wynnie:

I don't know exactly what to say, but I'll try to say something useful: If you have a problem, try to see what exactly that problem is and try to solve it. Ignoring the problem (by not thinking about it) might not be the best solution. You know, the reason why you can't sleep, can't concentrate, you're irritable, etc. What causes that.

And the ONLY thing I can think of is how meaningless my life is and how I am going to just stop existing one day and none of this ever really matters.

Life is indeed meaningless. This thought causes some people to commit or attempt committing suicide. It seems that we, unlike animals are not satisfied only with what we see and what we touch. There need to be more than what we can see: You know, even fantasies prove that, thirst for supernatural phenomena, dreams, day-dreams, religions, etc. all prove that. Sometimes even a strategy game where a player can change history can fascinates him, by making him see more than it is (and perhaps even convince him to study history to know what actually happened).

I get so scared that I am dying so often, that dying is the only thing on my mind.

I'm just so scared of dying and going to hell or not existing...I don't know how to get over this, be a pantheist or atheist, and call it a damn day

if this is the reason, perhaps you should study about death and dying... If this doesn't scare the hell out of you : ) )
If it doesn't, you can begin with these:

http://www.deathreference.com/Gi-Ho/Gods...Death.html
http://www.deathreference.com/Gi-Ho/Hell.html
http://science.howstuffworks.com/science...rience.htm
http://science.howstuffworks.com/science...-death.htm
http://science.howstuffworks.com/science...rience.htm

Hopefully they are useful, not only interesting.