Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[Mystical]

I'd venture to say that you're going to have to absorb a lot more material before you can give much back. Maybe find a recreational mathematics site? FWIW, you're going to have to stand on the shoulders of giants, whose work stretches back for millenia. Case in point, in my junior level university electromagnetics course, one of the homework problems was a well known physicist's master's thesis (don't recall who, now- that homework was in '82). We (students) had trouble with it, needless to say. But the lecture and text provided material for us to use for the solution. Back then, these guys and gals had to figure it all out on their own. So don't feel badly.

Thanks for your response, Fireball. I think the excellent advice that was outlined in your post is well beyond me, but nevetheless, it sounds really interesting and fascinating; ultimately,  I'm probably just going to stick to the humanities.  It sounds like you had an awesome experience with math in general.

I never had much interest in math until it became applicable in chemistry. Then things just clicked and my imagination took hold. I vowed to make some big medical discovery out of med school, but never even made it through first year before my disease hit hard for the first time. Now I'm an artist, Web designer, photographer! Total layman. 

 I guess my point is, we humans make plans but life has a way of changing them. As long as youre trying (like the people who discovered film on accident), you cant go wrong! If you're proficient in the maths then you have something precious there; don't give it up just because you don't feel extraordinary!

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People aren't usually that direct though.

It irks me too because I'm too direct so I can't relate

Hope you're doing alright Ivy

Thanks, hammy. Miss you!


CIJS?
To the wind. To nothing.
I'm worried. He had made so much progress and now it's like it was many lives ago, or just a dream. I'm taking him to school personally today. They said he hasn't said a word since Monday. Here at home he has laughed and played, but yeah. I noticed, too. It's all back to signing. Maybe it's the change? New school is scary? His new teacher says she doesn't even know what his voice sounds like. Stays in a corner alone. Baby. Honey. What's going on?

Muawww this might be an every change of environment thing! It's hard enough to adjust to the new year class stressors at school for kids, much less having all the static from his disease to deal! Once he learns theres a new routine, and what it is and gets used to it, it'll get better. It'll get better, JACK. Believe it, conquer it, accept it. ♡

[Jackalope]

CIJS - today sucked.

[Little lunch]

CIJS, I like you heaps but you're a bit needy.
I got a bad feeling this won't end well.

[brewer]

CIJS, I like you heaps but you're a bit needy.
I got a bad feeling this won't end well.

If all they need is sex you should be fine.

[Little lunch]

From my experience, sex is never all we need, on either side.

[Thumpalumpacus]

From my experience, sex is never all we need, on either side.

Yep ... anyone that shallow is not very attractive anyway, no?

[brewer]

From my experience, sex is never all we need, on either side.

Stop ruining my emotionless sex fantasies.

[Longhorn]

CIJS also, I know I'm an idiot. I know I am. I look at myself every day in the mirror and I say "S, you are a fucking idiot". I know something is seriously wrong with me that I let myself go through these things. And I think on a deeper level something else really wrong with me that I attract the kind of people who want to do these things to me.

Late to the party as always but... what the hell kinda talk is that? Losty... I know you've been through fucked up shit. But don't ever let that make you feel like it's on you. It's not. And you can beat whatever residue is left of it because you're strong. I can't say I've been where you're at, but I've been dealt a similar hand. And you and I both know you kick ass.

CIJS and all that. Had to get it out.

[Thumpalumpacus]

Good to.see.you around, Vic.

[brewer]

Hi ya Vic. 

You still swimming? (physically, not mentally, hehehe)