i know if someone post to an atheist forum it makes you guys want to double down on your beliefs and most of my story sounds make believe but I'm just sharing it because IM honestly lost and in disbelief ill answer any questions you guys have

 my story is that i have always been tortured by evil spirits, i was asked when i was about 12 if i would go to hell if everyone else could go to heaven i said yes and i instantly felt a chill hit my body and that night i couldn't sleep and seen shadows running around the room and in the morning i got held down a spirit and my eyes held closed then i seen a man riding on a bull and right before he ran into me he whipped my chest and i woke up with 3 marks on my chest that faded in in out for years and so for years i thought i was unsaved and walked around in despair but i got saved when i was 18 i cried out to God after going thru some things ,, but i kept sinning and thru time i got even more sinful than i was before i was truly wicked but couldn't stop. the thing is that my sin drowned out the voice of God to the point i couldn't tell if a blessing was from God or the enemy I couldn't tell if my prayers were answered by God or the enemy because Gods voice was drowned out so bad.. i joined a church based rehab but it was a cult I was in the program to prove to God that I've changed but i know now he didn't want me there at all But i couldn't hear him telling me to leave . They would make little jokes like you cant eat or drink this or you will go to hell and do some weird little hand movements i thought they were just being stupid and i would say i cant go to hell for that but I'm thinking that I took the mark of the beast because later that day I got thrown to my knees and I confessed Jesus was God and I felt my soul leave me and got superhuman strength for a short time.. i was the only one in the program fasting but i was focused on getting Gods grace again and didnt really pay attention .the pastor started saying everything was a blessing and i felt so much guilt for not being appreciative that i started giving God thanks for everything that I've gotten but in turn started giving thanks to the enemy for the things he had done because everything isn't a blessing from God so that ended up being blasphemy because i was contributing things from God to the enemy and vice versa and couldn't tell the difference ,and God cant work with that.

ill go places and sometimes lights turn off doors unlock by there are flies constantly around me a demon yells at me to wake me up I can feel my skin burning at times.. when i eat i get no nutrition i get weaker no matter what but i cant die i feel like something else is breathing in me when i walk it feels like I'm just floating there is a pressure in my head but its not a headache , i can smell what hell smells like ..

Get thee to an MD.

Preferably a psychiatrist.

I too have been tortured by evil spirits......


Prolonged dry heaves from.drinking the better part of a liter of Jack Daniels is about as evil as spirits get......

Boru

Up until a few years ago, I thought I was from another dimension outside this universe. Life is funny. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. Or, more germane, we are the best of people, we are the worst of people. All of us. Even Hitler had a mother who loved him. Slow down. Worry about the simple things, the concrete. Leave the more nuanced, complex, indecipherable shit to God, or fate, whichever you prefer. In the East they have a saying: chop wood, carry water. We don't actually need more than the simple tasks of daily living to be content, well-aimed, and fulfilled. Attend to that which is within your power to control and tell the rest to go fuck itself.

(September 15, 2022 at 5:22 pm)onlinebiker Wrote: I too have been tortured by evil spirits......


Prolonged dry heaves from.drinking the better part of a liter of Jack Daniels is about as evil as spirits get......

Not true. I fasted for three days prior to consuming the better part of a gallon jug of Boone's Farm apple wine. Trust me. There are worse things.

To the OP -- you may be suffering from psychosis; go to an urgent care soon, if not the emergency room.

Saying I'm serious only works if what follows meets expectations of reality.

*slowly backs out of thread*