I don't really have anything other than, at almost 40, I prefer to be alone. Other than seeing my Mother and Father I have absolutely no interest at this point in my life to have any sort of social life with any local person. I should clarify, I live in the Bible B.S. Belt with no one of like mind in real life to interact with.There were a few friends but they all had to go because they had a consistent factor of being completely fucking crazy in one way or the other ( see my intro thread ) or the lacking trait of being a complete dullard..so if I can't interact with those of similar like mind via the internet, I stay at home and read etc. and try to not think about the fact that locational wise I feel very isolated.I live in a very small town.
I am a guitarist, and when i am not doing that I am reading, if not that... something else. In my youth I would get "bored" .. and it would lead to negative things. I still get bored but I won't let it manifest in a negative fashion.
I used to think I *had* to have a girlfriend or I did not feel whole. X amount of nightmarish relationships and faux "friendships" later, I am at the happiest point of my life ... 20 years of depression and having a life with no meaning being past ashes .I am especially careful not to let external forces ( people ) mess with my balance at this point.
This very negative drunkard sort of local has been blowing my phone up for two fucking days. This clown has called and/or texted more than twenty times. This is not the pushy Jesus guy I spoke about in my intro thread, just another clown I need gone from my field of effect.
I hope in the near future I am able to move from this place to somewhere far off where I don't have to isolate. I am actually quite sociable, I am just used to not being near, or able to find those of like mind so I don't expect much other than to be left alone by local clowns. Thanks for letting me rant.
I am a guitarist, and when i am not doing that I am reading, if not that... something else. In my youth I would get "bored" .. and it would lead to negative things. I still get bored but I won't let it manifest in a negative fashion.
I used to think I *had* to have a girlfriend or I did not feel whole. X amount of nightmarish relationships and faux "friendships" later, I am at the happiest point of my life ... 20 years of depression and having a life with no meaning being past ashes .I am especially careful not to let external forces ( people ) mess with my balance at this point.
This very negative drunkard sort of local has been blowing my phone up for two fucking days. This clown has called and/or texted more than twenty times. This is not the pushy Jesus guy I spoke about in my intro thread, just another clown I need gone from my field of effect.
I hope in the near future I am able to move from this place to somewhere far off where I don't have to isolate. I am actually quite sociable, I am just used to not being near, or able to find those of like mind so I don't expect much other than to be left alone by local clowns. Thanks for letting me rant.
