RE: Battling my demons
August 12, 2015 at 4:04 pm
(This post was last modified: August 12, 2015 at 4:11 pm by Excited Penguin.)
I find that I too, sometimes, find it unbelievable somehow that I don't believe in God - but in my country, that's no surprise. Here 99.9 % of the people are religious. After a lifetime of that, you'll have times when your religious alter ego will creep in and tell you that of course there's a god, how could there not be? It really freaks me out - not that it's that strong of a feeling, but just that this slight thought is there. I'm ashamed whenever I have it. My logical side though - Meh, still not impressed with fairy tales.
I've had two friends that were atheists too, and one acquaintance I made online- all moldavians like me. The two friends told me recently that they are believers again - one of them might have been joking though. The other one, I found out later, was just misunderstanding what the concept of God even means - no surprise there, I guess, but it still gave me pause a little. The acquaintance though, I found out was once an atheist and returned to her theistic beliefs because she started believing in miracles again, and because of her "personal experience".
Bottom line is, here, not even the atheists are free from religion. It's a truly fucked-up situation and I commiserate for my compatriots. I have thought about it and I think it's because of the nation's history. It's post-communist, and since we all know how communists handled religion, maybe that's why we've witnessed such a massive religious backlash in these parts of the world over the preceding decades.
I've had two friends that were atheists too, and one acquaintance I made online- all moldavians like me. The two friends told me recently that they are believers again - one of them might have been joking though. The other one, I found out later, was just misunderstanding what the concept of God even means - no surprise there, I guess, but it still gave me pause a little. The acquaintance though, I found out was once an atheist and returned to her theistic beliefs because she started believing in miracles again, and because of her "personal experience".
Bottom line is, here, not even the atheists are free from religion. It's a truly fucked-up situation and I commiserate for my compatriots. I have thought about it and I think it's because of the nation's history. It's post-communist, and since we all know how communists handled religion, maybe that's why we've witnessed such a massive religious backlash in these parts of the world over the preceding decades.
