Hello and welcome Sandra!
I'm gonna keep it nice and short:
A) Time heals everything, it eventually goes away, most of it at the very least
B) The guilt only matters as much as you think it does, which brings me to C
C) Arms yourself well: Read and research! Watch debates, read books, articles... You can only go for so long just by using brute force to fight it!
You've taken a difficult road! It will be bumpy, but it will help you grow!
I'm gonna keep it nice and short:
A) Time heals everything, it eventually goes away, most of it at the very least
B) The guilt only matters as much as you think it does, which brings me to C
C) Arms yourself well: Read and research! Watch debates, read books, articles... You can only go for so long just by using brute force to fight it!
You've taken a difficult road! It will be bumpy, but it will help you grow!
"organizing atheists has been compared to herding cats, because they tend to think independently and will not conform to authority" -- Richard Dawkins