All of you have valid reasoning on varied levels. I do enjoy everyone's unique perspective around here ... always have.
The dark truth is that I genuinely like the idea of a creator being, regardless of what he may call himself. Not the afterlife, punishment and reward, heaven and hell or any of that other ridiculous bull shit, but rather the simplicity of someday discovering a "spiritual string theory" if you will. The ambiguity that deism offers me has come to be almost a warm blanket of limitless possibilities that my imagination can embrace and my sense of reason can overlook.
Still, to say "I believe in God," feels dishonest somehow. Maybe it's the word, God. Christians have made it such a dark dirty word full of evil intentions and unlimited suffering. I don't know. I'm sort of thinking out loud and typing on the fly ...
Anyway, if I have a hard time calling myself a deist, I have an equally difficult time calling myself an atheist.
Regardless of the existence of a creator being, I believe in the possibility of reincarnation without the existence of any creator being. I know ... not very atheistic is it.
And the rub of it all --- religion annoys the hell out of me. I find most christians to be the stupidest most gullible people on the planet, 2nd only to those primitives in the Middle East who worship that other angry brutal deity hell-bent on eternal damnation and world wide genocide.
How does one come to terms with all that?
As Ignoramus brought to mind - should I just slap an agnostic label on my shirt and keep it down? Or is this what de-conversion feels like and I just forgot the process?
The dark truth is that I genuinely like the idea of a creator being, regardless of what he may call himself. Not the afterlife, punishment and reward, heaven and hell or any of that other ridiculous bull shit, but rather the simplicity of someday discovering a "spiritual string theory" if you will. The ambiguity that deism offers me has come to be almost a warm blanket of limitless possibilities that my imagination can embrace and my sense of reason can overlook.
Still, to say "I believe in God," feels dishonest somehow. Maybe it's the word, God. Christians have made it such a dark dirty word full of evil intentions and unlimited suffering. I don't know. I'm sort of thinking out loud and typing on the fly ...
Anyway, if I have a hard time calling myself a deist, I have an equally difficult time calling myself an atheist.
Regardless of the existence of a creator being, I believe in the possibility of reincarnation without the existence of any creator being. I know ... not very atheistic is it.
And the rub of it all --- religion annoys the hell out of me. I find most christians to be the stupidest most gullible people on the planet, 2nd only to those primitives in the Middle East who worship that other angry brutal deity hell-bent on eternal damnation and world wide genocide.
How does one come to terms with all that?
As Ignoramus brought to mind - should I just slap an agnostic label on my shirt and keep it down? Or is this what de-conversion feels like and I just forgot the process?
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